Patayin sa sindak si Angeline... :P

Luv ko xa...

Promise!!! Ang ganda ng boses niya..

Pero nung nakita ang video na to:

Gusto ko na xang saksakin!!!!

At kailan naging sayo si Coco Martin???!!!

Ha??!!! Sumagot ka!!??

Hahahahha!! Charot lang!!!

Hay naku!!! Umiinit yung ulo ko pag may lumalandi kay Coco Martin..

Sa akin lang siya!!

Diba Coco??

Hay, wag ka na magalit..kasi loyal din ako sayo..pwamis!!!!

There...ngiti na si Coco!!!

At pag ganito ang pose niya, aayaw ka pa ba???

Go na!!! Dive na tau mga teh.. aw..ako lang pala..

Hahahhaa!!! Kakalowka!!!

:p ^PurpleLady

Si Tito at ang makasalanan… :p

Si Tito Larry at ang asawa niyang si Tita Nelia ay nag relocate sa katabi ng bahay namin few weeks past..

They were originally located in Cebu City but since ang Tito ay narelocate sa local branch sa probinsya namin ay nag decide na rin silang lumipat..

This was actually good since ang Tita Nelia naman ay taga dito talaga.

Si Tita Nelia ay pinsan ng mama ko. She’s 9 years older than Tito Larry.

Siya actually ang favorite Tita ko. Kasi ever since she was the one whom I shared my kabaklaan moments..

At tuwang tuwa pa xa at todo ang support sa akin… kaya luv na luv ko si Tita..

I was already in my 4^th year HS ng napansin ng Tita ko na may nag iba kay Tito ..

Sabi niya parang nanglalamig na daw..

Sabi ko imposibleng mag loko ang Tito

Kasi ang alam ko faithful naman eto kahit hindi ko xa masyadong kasundo..

Bakit kami hindi magkasundo? I think because we’re both intellectually gifted… Parating nag clash ang mga views namin.. But we tried to be as civil as possible.. Especially sa harap ng buong familia..

 So balik tayo sa hinala ni Tita, minsan daw kasi ay late na tong umuwi..

Umuwi at around 9 PM which normally is dapat mga 6 PM..latest daw  na uwian nito ay 7 PM..

Advice ko sa Tita ay ipanatag niya ang sarili niya…

D next week ay nagpaalam ako sa Mama ko about a week trip sa Cebu.. It was actually a Leadership Convention..

So payag naman ang mama… kaya gora na ako sa Cebu City..

After 1 week, nang matapos na convention ay bumalik na ko sa amin

I saw my Tita crying sa bahay nila

I asked her why .. ang sagot si Tito daw.. Nagpaalam last Thursday and Friday na umuwi  sa kanila sa Cebu for an emergency meeting sa head office pero ng nag inquire daw siya ay ay wala daw scheduled meeting…

Tumawag din naman daw siya sa in laws niya sa Cebu pero ala naman daw ang Tito dun..

So Tita was already hysterical coz that could prove all her theories na baka may kabit ang Tito..

And Tita swore that she will find out..

I said why not ask Tito directly..

Pero sabi niya hindi daw.. she will find ways without Tito knowing..

Then I saw what I thought was most disturbing in Tita’s eyes… Galit na xa..

Something that I haven’t seen for more than 10 years..

Then I was scared..

So nag excuse ako kay Tita..sabi ko uwi muna ako..

Pagdating ko sa bahay, I run through all my notes…

Kailangan kong makita ang folder about sa Leadership convention..

Chills run through my spines

Please magpakita ka…

There nahulog sa sahig ang programme ng conventation

Explicitly saying that…..

LEADERSHIP MEETING : Mon to Wed

Yes, hindi po totoong  1 whole week ang convention…

Saan ako nung Thursday and Friday?

I was with someone I loved for the longest time

With Tito Larry…

Tama po kayo,

Ako na isang diwata ang kabit ng Tito Larry.

:p ^PurpleLady

Signs… :p

When I was young, I never thought I would be like this..

I used to have boys as my constant companion..

Until napansin ko na instead na kaibigan ang tingin ko sa kanila…

Naging iba…

Hindi ma explain..

At ang dating kaibigan ngayon ay crush na ..

Pero I said to myself, “Wala lang to..”

Then I started having dreams..

Kakaiba…

Na may buntot daw ako.. <na violet ha.. :p>

Tapos puro ganito ang panaginip ko..

Pati ang pinsan ko napanagininipan kong ganito....

That was when I was young..

Very very young…

At my tender age, I realized

Isa akong diwata… kaya ang inyong abang lingkod ay kumuha ng bato

Nilunok

At sumigaw..

DARNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 :p ^PurpleLady

Freddy the 13th… :P (a cont....)

Aw!! Friday the 13^th pala…
Just when Ramona thought that concealing the truth will free him…

He was apparently wrong..

 Hindi xa pinapatulog ng koncenxa.. Koncenxa ba or something else..

He woke up in the middle of the night with his young mind wondering what would’ve happened if he chose to stay on that day…

He felt so vulnerable..

Wala xang mapagsasabihan… ang hirap..

For the past few weeks.. hindi na niya nakikita si Freddy

What for anyway? Susumbatan niya for causing him a lot of internal troubles??

Or gusto niyang dugtungan ang naudlot na ligaya..

Days passed..Weeks… and months.. until

“Kumusta ka na? “

Napalingon si Ramona at makikita ang saya sa mata ng ating young bida.

Ramona:  Ok lang po, ang tagal mong nawala.

Freddy: Nagkasakit kasi ang lola sa bukid kaya kelangan kong umuwi.

Ramona: Ah ganun bah

Freddy: Na miss mo ba ako? <flashing his most devilish smile>

Ramona: uhummm..ano po kasi.. <at nag blush ang young bida>

Freddy: Gusto mo ulitin natin? Pero sana di mo na ako takbuhan.

Ramona: Natatakot po kasi ako.

Freddy: Bakit ka naman matatakot? Secret lang naman natin tong dalawa.

Ramona: Baka Mbuntis po ako <plak.. una wala kang matris at ala pang regla..remeber 9 years ka palang!!!>

Charot!

Ramona: Saan po?

Freddy: Sa Lingo ulit , punta ka dito sa school..

FAST FORWARD…

Sunday, around 4 pm. Unlike before, maliwanag ang araw… Tila kasing excited ni Ramona ang haring araw…

Young Ramona though scared felt excited… Parang may mga munting paru paro sa kanyang tiyan.

Freddy: Mauna kana sa loob.. Dun pa rin tau.. Sunod ako

Ramona: Sige po…

Tinahak ni Ramona ang daan papuntang HE room… maliwanag man ang araw ay nakukubli pa rin ng matatayog na puno at tila sa dilim nakahanap si Ramona ng kaligayahan…

10 minutes after ay dumating si Freddy.

Ramona: Madilim po…

Freddy: Ok lang yan..mas madilim mas maganda.. Halika, hawakan mo na..

Ramona: uhumm.. sige po……

And the rest is history…

Ang young bida natin ay nagpaubaya na sa tawag ng kanyang pagka diwata… What happened next was the start of something good.. katuparan ng kanyang mga panaginip…  At dun ang unang tikim ng young actress..

:p ^PurpleLady

Emo moments.. :p

For my mom and dad who trusted all my decisions...

Mom, who at first thought that being a gay is shame but realized that it's a gift from God

and to Dad who never gave me a questioning look when he knew I was gay...

"I give you freedom to express yourself as a gay but you know freedom entails responsibility " -wise words from my wise dad...

My answer is a big YES!!!

To all the things asked on this video...

I will be with both of you.. til your last breath... <sigh>

:p ^PurpleLady

Pagkamulat… :p

Sunday afternoon.. around 2 PM.. maulan sa labas.. light lang naman yet the place looks gloomy..

Ramon..uhumm..Let’s call our young bida Ramona instead… Young Ramona is around 9 years old… Grade 3 student full of aspirations. Intelligent and spontaneous…

Ramona walked along the deserted place.. its kinda unusual for this Sunday at a barrio to be this silent..

His mom is attending church meeting few meters away.. pero di niya bet sumali so he decided to just wander around the place..

Fronting the church is the elementary school where Ramona is currently enrolled in… So ang young bida natin decided to get inside at maglibot-libot..

Since its Sunday,walang tao..so perfect for his plan to solely owned the newly renovated fish pond…

Off he went.. nakita niya si Freddy.. ang na assign na magbantay sa school during weekend…

Freddy is around his early twenties… Normal ang pangangatawan… cute pero hindi rin head turner..

Ramona: Kuya Freddy, pasok po ako school… gusto kong makita ang fishpond..

Freddy: Hindi ka ba natatakot? Ikaw lang mag isa sa loob.

Ramona: Ok lang po… Hindi naman ako matatakutin..

Freddy : Sige ikaw, sigaw ka lang pag may nakita kang multo ha..

So Ramona went inside the deserted school… Punta agad xa sa favorite place niya just behind the Home Economics Room…

Super enjoy si Ramona nang makarinig siya ng kaluskos…

He initially thought na baka pusa lang pero he can’t be wrong… that must be a human being..

Scared yet Ramona chose to stay calm.. Reminding himself that multo don’t exist…

Ng biglang…

Blooohhhh!!!

Ang young bida natin ay nagulat sa biglang pagsulpot ng isang mabigat na kamay from behind…

Scared at hindi makalingon.. he thought it was his end…then he heard what he thought was a very absurd laugh..

It was Freddy scaring the soul out of him..

Freddy: Sorry ha, nagulat ba kita? <in his most devilish smile>

Ramona: Kuya naman kasi eh, manggulat bah

Freddy: Sorry na nga..so kumusta ang paglibotlibot?

Ramona: Ok lang naman..

Freddy: Halika, samahan mo ko sa mga rooms..Check ko kung locked ba lahat

Ramona: Sige po

Since ang Home Economics Room ang pinakamalapit so duon sila unang nagpunta..

Freddy: Naku, sinasabi ko na nga ba.. Naiwan ni Mrs Santos tong bukas. Halika pasok tayo.

Ramona: Ayoko po.. madilim

Freddy: Akala ko ba hindi ka matatakutin.. andito naman ako ha

So pumasok na nga ang young bida natin kasama ang hombreng si Freddy..

He knew something would happen… yet innocence dictates that nothing will happen until…

Freddy: Halika ka may ipapakita ako sayo

Ramona: Ano po yun…

On that moment he thought those movie scenes don’t exist in real life... but he is wrong because….

Freddy then unzip his pants and flaunt his frontal.

Freddy: Hawakan mo

Ramona: Ayoko po..

 Freddy: Sige na… hindi naman yan nangangagat eh..

Freddy then took Ramona’s juvenile hand and guided it to his semi hardened frontal..

Young and naive Ramona thought it was a beautiful thing he’s looking at…

Ramona: Ang init po..at matigas

Freddy: uhummmm…sige pa, hawakan mo lang.. gusto mo bang maging bato yan?

Ramona: Ha? Pwede ba yun?

Freddy : Pwede… halikan mo lang tpos lawayan mo..

Ramona then felt something’s wrong. He felt something.. Heat that’s consuming yet he knew it’s not good… So he decided to..

RUN AWAY…

Freddy: Hoi, san ka pupunta?

Pero ang yound bida natin ay nakalabas na… tumakbo..takot .. nangangamba.. Anung ginawa ko? He asked himself… he felt dirty pero may munting kilig..

Mali.. hindi to tama.. Dapat wlang makakaalam..

So he decided to keep the secret for 16 long years… until he pours his deepest and darkest  secret on his online diary..

Yes, alam niyang that day, he unleashed something forbidden by society yet he envisioned every night..seeking refuge and liberty on his dreams..

 :p ^PurpleLady

Royal Blood…:P

Isa po akong pure blooded royalty sa sang kabaklaan…

What Im trying to say is that hindi po nabahiran ang aking dangal ng kahit anung related sa kepz…

Never had sex sa isang bilat nor had any feelings sa kahit sinong merlat..

Not that I have anything against those na nakatikim na… cant blame them kung natry nila… this society could be a bit harsh to someone like us….at alam ko na nabiktima lang sila… <sad>

I knew my identity really early.. na isa pala akong diwata sa anyo ng isang hombre..

Dat was back when I was still 9 years old…

Opo mga ate…. Nung 9 years old ay knows ko na ang idea ng mga otoko at ang mga ahas na nakawala sa ulo ni Medusa.. plak!

Kung si Erich Gonzales ay lumandi nung katorse pa xa , ako naman nung nueve pa lang ketch..

But ever since, knows ko na para ako sa isang hombre at hindi sa mga kepz jan..

And for the past 16 years, loyal po ang inyong abang lingkod sa sumpa ko kay Moder Diwata.. na maging loyal sa Oath of all Bekis..na wezz ko titikim ng mga anak ni Eba..nor papasok sa yungib ng kamatayan… plak!!!

Paano ko nalaman na beki ako? Kelan ang unang tikim ko? Kelan ako sumumpa kay Moder Diwata na iingatan ko ang aking dangal? Malalaman niyo sa mga future entries ko…

Basta ako, hapi sa kung anung meron ako..

Masaya maging bakla

Kaya pag may nakita akong young and fresh na beki…

Pinagdadasal ko sila..kay Moder diwata na gabayan sila.. iwasan sa mga yungib ng mga merlat.. at more more snakes along the way…!!!! :p

Never kung kinahiya maging bakla…

Proud to be gay!!! Bow…..

Hindi po ako yan!!! Aww…

:p ^Purplelady